woke in the middle of the night, having to run to the bathroom so sick to my stomach, I knew right then, that this was morning sickness. I just felt different, its hard to explain, but I just knew. So the next day during my lunch break I went and bought a pregnacy test and when I got home that evening I took it. I just couldn't wait for Zach to get home. I was way to excited and needed to know right away. And I was right, I was going to have a baby. I remember calling Zach at work, he shared in my excitement. Sure it was a little quicker than we had planned and the wedding was going to need moved up, but it didn't matter, we were going to be parents and we had been so scared that we would never be able to conceive. The following week I went to the doctor to have a blood test done to confirm what I already knew. A week later they called to congradulate us, it was definatly positive. It was the beginning of December of 92 now. I remember going home that night after the call from the doctor, we were so excited, our dreams were coming true, so quickly and we couldn't of been happier. We knew some people would question our actions because we were so young, I was 19, Zach was 20, but we had our minds made up, this was what we wanted so badly. I remember that night sitting in our living room discussing baby names. Then I went to the bathroom and there was blood, not alot, but I was definatly bleeding. I remeber thinking to myself, this can't be happening, not now, we were so happy. I called my doctor right away, he told me to calm down and get some rest and he would see me in the morning. I did just that and the next morning when we went to his office, he did an exam and everything looked okay. He sent us for a sonogram just to make sure. What an amazing day that was, the first time we got to see our angel. Although he looked just like a tiny kidney bean, but there was that tiny red dot of a heart that was beating so perfectly. Things seemed to be alright, so I was sent home and told to take it easy and scheduled to see my doctor again in a month. Because of our scare we decided we were not going to tell anyone until after the next appointment, just in case. But with Christmas and all we couldn't keep our secret completely, we decided on Christmas Eve to tell Zach's parents, we knew they would be thrilled and they had done so much for us already, we just wanted to give them an incredible Christmas gift. So on Christmas Eve while opening gifts we handed them the picture of the sonogram. Of course they were confused, considering they had never seen a sonogram before so we had to explain it to them. We pointed out that the little kidney bean was there grandbaby and the tiny red dot was his strong little heart. They were both almost in tears with happiness, it was a wonderful Christmas. But we never got to tell the rest of the family the way we planned to instead they all found out when I was admitted to the hospital at the beginning of January 1993. It was just a week before my next doctors appointment, I woke in the morning bleeding terribly, this time I really thought I had just had a miscarriage. By the time I walked through the Emergency Room doors I was covered in blood. They rushed me back to a room, they too, thought I had just had a miscarriage. They brought out a small portable sonogram machine and weren't we all suprised to see that tiny little angel tumbling around inside me. No one understood what had just happened, but my baby was still alive and that was all that mattered. I was admitted in the hospital for a few days, and released on bed rest for a few weeks.
Things started to look better, I was past my first trimester and feeling pretty good, but then came the middle of February, I started to have horrible pain in my stomach, I was actually going into preterm labor. They admitted me into the hospital again. This time the placenta was torn. I just kept praying that my baby would be okay, after all this, he had to be okay. I stayed in the hospital for a week and then once again released on bed rest. Once again I returned to work, and things seem to be getting better. However there was a lot of stress on me at this point, it was the beginning of March and our wedding was set for March 13th, but that wasn't what was really stressful, this time when I returned to work, the owner of my company decided that she no longer needed me as a full time employee and cut my hours, along with that she also stopped my medical insurance. I couldn't believe she was doing this to me. I was 5 months pregnant and now without insurance. She told me to just go on medical assistance and I explained that my doctor didn't except it and I couldn't just change doctors now, not after everything that had happened. Well that didn't matter to her, so with the help of my soon to be father-in-law and my mom, the 3 of us started making phone calls to see what could possibly be done. I wasn't offered cobra because they were such a small company and didn't have to offer it. I needed to keep my job at that point, until after the baby was born. I finally got in contact with a man for PA labor relations who agreed to except the case. But thats a whole nother story. Anyways, the baby himself seemed to be doing great. We were starting to feel him move, although I wouldn't realize it until I became pregnant with his brother, that he didn't really move as much as he should have. We were scheduled for another sonogram a few days before our wedding. This was the big one, the time we were hoping to find out if we were having a boy or a girl. The sonogram looked great, the placenta looked completely healed and after a little coxing our little boy finally exposed himself to us. What an exciting time it
was. Things finally looked perfect and the wedding was in a couple of days. |
